An Available Vessel

I was talking on the phone at night, and it was relatively late (don't know exactly what time), but as I was on the phone, tear started coming down my face. Earlier that day, I had a pretty "bumpy" event that shook me up a bit. So as these tears ran down my face I began to wonder if it was because of that event, but I just felt a nudge to pray. So I had to grunt out "I can't talk anymore, I have to pray" I barely got those words out and hung the phone up. I soon after fell off my bed and began to weep and weep before God asking what He wants from me. After that, I soon felt such an emptiness and loneliness; just a feeling nobody will ever want to feel. I felt like a man who was lost in the world of drugs and deep in it, and the end is near; that is the best explanation to how bad I felt with tears still streaming down my face. Then, all of a sudden, I knew I had heard the voice of God speak saying "I'm hear to speak life and peace into you right now." I still was weeping, and after that I began to weep even harder. By this time I was sprawled out on my floor weeping before God. God began to speak a Word to me and all I could say was "Can these bones live?" God had given me some private stuff relating to my church that is between Him and I. But God got ahold of me. I was tired and about to go to sleep. I was already snuggled up in my bed with my blanket at my chin, and God dragged me out of bed and said "no you don't, I got something for you that's going to give you some insight and going to stir you up!" Let me tell you, when I hit the prayer room today, I was like a loose cannon; God got ahold of me and stirred me. I could have said "no God not now, I'm going to finish my conversation and go to sleep." However, I was an available vessel, that said "yes God, what do you want from me?" I was weeping for hours as God got ahold of me. I told my pastor this and then he told me an amazing testimony of how he was used like that. He told me that he was in a dead sleep, and God woke him up at exactly 1:20 a.m. and his prayed in the Spirit, speaking in tongues until 2:00 a.m. He felt as if he was in a battle, a battle for life or death. He said that he felt that sometimes he felt like he was losing and then winning, it was an intense battle. As soon as 2:00 a.m. came, he had received a phone call from a brother in the church. This man was contemplating murdering his wife, his child, and his grandchild, and probably himself after. He was a Vietnam veteran, so killing someone wasn't a hard task for him to conduct. He had grabbed a butcher knife from his kitchen and went sat down on the couch and stared at it. He moved it in a tempting way, to put it to work. He then got up from his seat and went to his bedroom, and stroked his wife's hair... with the butcher knife in his hand. Then it seemed as though God had got ahold of him and brought tears in his eyes... it was 1:20 a.m. when the tears started streaming down his face. The same time his brother across town, was woken up and started praying in the Holy Ghost:

Likewise the Spirit also helpeth our infirmities: for we know not what we should pray for as we ought: but the Spirit itself maketh intercession for us with groanings which cannot be uttered (Romans 8:26).

Because my pastor was an available vessel, he was able to save 3, if not 4, lives. This was a matter of life or death. I have a question for you today, "are you an available vessel?" Are you willing to be woken up out of sleep? Are you willing to be inconvenienced by God? Are you?